أَيُّهَا المَأْمُولُ فِي كُلِّ حَاجَتِي
إِلَيْكَ أَشْكُو تَضَرُّعًا شِكَايَتِي
فَزَادِي قَلِيلٌ مَا آرَاهُ مُبَلِّغِي
فَلِلزَّادِ اَبْكِي اَمْ لِبُعْدِ مَسَافَتِي
Bihori Kitab Page 23
This Munājāt is a journey — from hope, to humility, to helplessness, to awakening
This word ' ma’mūl' is profound.
It means:
The One relied upon.
The One expected.
The One whose response is anticipated with certainty.
It reflects Tawakkul (absolute reliance).
“My provisions are little…
The “provision” (zād) refers to spiritual provision:
Good deeds
Ikhlāṣ (sincerity)
Knowledge
Obedience
Love of Awliyā’
The servant looks at his life honestly and says: “My provision is little.”
This is not despair. This is Muhāsabah (self-accounting).
True spirituality begins when a person:
Stops comparing with others
Starts evaluating himself before Allah.
“Should I weep for the little provision, or for the long distance?”
This is a line that pierces the soul.
Two realities terrify the servant:
His deeds are few.
The journey to Divine proximity is long and demanding.
This expresses existential awareness.
The believer realizes:
The destination is lofty.
The path is subtle.
The nafs is heavy.
Time is short.
It makes us ask:
What is my provision?
How long is my journey?
Am I prepared?
Is my heart awake?
And yet — despite confession and insufficiency — the servant still calls Him:
“O You who are my only hope.”
Dua ni iltemas.
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